This Is Really Strange...

I generally consider myself a pretty cheery person. I like the world. It's good times. But for the past...year I guess I've been less than my usual cheery self. Actually, I'd say it's been more like a year and a half when I really think about it. Crazy. Anyway, I've not been myself. And recently it's been a lot worse even. It got to the point where I'd actually forgotten how I used to feel. Not that I was always happy or anything obnoxious like that (I hate those people) but just a generally content chick in a farout, groovy kind of way (I watch way too many movies). And suddenly over the past couple of days I find myself feeling like, well, myself again. It's strange to feel a way that you had almost forgot you ever felt before. I'm hoping it sticks because damn it's good. And it's not like anything has changed. I'm still stuck in Duncan, I haven't been accepted to any grad schools (I haven't even finished applying yet), I'm still in the process of getting divorced and I'm still single-ish. Oh, and I have no money and am going to have to look for yet another job to get me through the summer because once the teaching ends, I'm really screwed. And yet, even now, thinking about all the crap that I need to do, I'm feeling good. I have a headache. But other than that I'm good. Really, really good. I'm hoping this a turning point and not just some kind of hallucination due to the fumes emanating from my newly glazed tub. Which by the way rocks my world. Really, it does. And if that's not sad enough to snap me right back into my depression I don't know what is. :-)