Aaaarrrrrrrrrghrhrhrhhhhhhh!

In case you hadn't guessed by the alarming number of new posts over the past couple of days I'm going completely nutty! I don't mind living in Duncan. Duncan is actually okay for the most part. And I'm glad that my parents are letting me stay here and sponge off them until I get things sorted out but some days I just want to gouge my own eyes out from the sheer boredom of it all. I get up, I work on the freelance stuff, I walk the dog, I work some more, I make dinner (most of the time) I sit in front of the tv and eat dinner, I work some more, I go for a walk, I watch some more tv (kill me now) and then I go to bed. Sometimes I go to the gym. And that's it. None of my friends live in Duncan (for obvious reasons) and I don't have a car and it's making me crazy. There's nothing like having no options to make you feel completely trapped and useless. I don't like it. I mean, I wander around and I play with the dog and I am really quite busy with my freelance stuff but having no choice about how to spend my day is really wearing on me. I miss my life in Tokyo so much sometimes I feel like I should be chewing my leg off to get out of this trap but that wouldn't really work either. And it's not actually that my life in Tokyo was great. Because it obviously wasn't. I just miss being able to leave my house and hop on a train or my bike and go somewhere completely different. I want to be able to hop into my car and drive out into the middle of nowhere and watch the stars. Or down into to Cowichan Bay to walk around near the water, and maybe sit on the pier for awhile. I like small coastal towns because you can do things like that. But here I am, and I can't do anything. Anyway, I'm done whining now. I'm going to go for a walk and get something to eat. And then I'm going to steal a car and drive around naked listening to country music. Because that's just how crazy I am right now.