Thursday, November 10, 2005

Motivation?

I've completely lost all motivation. I don't know where it is but it's definitely not under the bed because I just looked. And then I lost the motivation to look anymore. Ha ha. Un-motivated but still damn funny. It's got to be the overwhelming gray blahness of the weather that's sucking the life out of me. I have a ton of work to do for the college - freelance design stuff for the residences, a questionnaire for the alumni association, a grade summary for my class not to mention everything I need to get done for my grad school applications! Grrrr! And I've just had 3 days off in a row (okay, I had to go in to do a bank deposit one of the days but really that was a 3 hour excursion including travel time) and still I've accomplished nothing! Nothing! Well, yesterday I did a painting. Actually it's 3 little canvases but one painting. I think I might even like it. But I almost didn't finish that either as it was frustrating me a whole lot so I gave up and went off to the coffee shop to do some reading for my grad school stuff which I lost the motivation for after an hour. ONE hour. What the hell?! I was diligently reading and making happy notes for later reference and after an hour I'd only made it through the introduction to the damn book! It's like my brain has turned to mush. I might as well go get me some acrylic nails and frosty highlights right now because there's nothing left for me from an intellectual perspective. And my stomach hurts. Because of the crunches. Because the trainer at my gym is obviously trying to kill me. Alot. I'm only motivated to go to the gym because I'm afraid if I don't show up they'll come looking for me. Scary group. :-) Oh god. Now I have to go have a shower and get ready because today is another big banking day. Why does the shower have to be so far away? Could someone come and drag me over to the bathroom? I think I could manage it from there. No? What kind of friends are you people?!

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