Tea Leaves are Fun!

Well, maybe not in and of themselves they're not but aided by the presence of a primo tea leaf reader they sure as hell are! Darn tootin! Shut up Marla. Tea leaves are a very important part of my life. Do you really want to hurt me? Do you really want to make me cry-y? Anyway...

It was creepy. Really creepy. Like tomato seeds and spiders. Well, not like spiders no, but kind of like tomato seeds. If I liked tomato seeds. Which I don't. So maybe it wasn't like that either. Maybe it was like a rollercoaster. You think it's going to be fun and then you remember that it's a little scary too but you do it anyway because it's fun but then while you're strapped in and it's hurtling you all over the place, upside down and all around and you're imagining the cart coming off of the rails and you hurtling through the air until you come to an abrupt and messy stop on the side of a building or whatever. But then that doesn't actually happen and it's all over and it was pretty fun after all but you're a little shaky nonetheless so you have go and have a little sit down. Maybe with a lovely frothy latte. Or maybe it's nothing like that either. Whatever. It was creepy but fun and a lovely frothy latte is never a bad thing. Unless you don't have one. Which I didn't. But I did buy myself a pretty little necklace which made me feel much better. Because I'm a girl. And that's what girls do.

So this woman talked alot. And she knew stuff. Some of which I won't mention here because then everybody would know my stuff and it wouldn't be special. She started by saying that I'd had a really rough year and a half and that it had seemed like some kind of crazy roller coaster that I really wanted to get off of (not the good kind of roller coaster I guess - although would any roller coaster still be fun after a year and a half? I think not) and that my life was going to start getting better now. Not necessarily easier, but better. That I'd been feeling as though I was in limbo and that that was coming to an end. Then she asked me where my father was. Needless to say that threw me for a loop. She said that I'd been thinking about him alot of the time lately (which, sadly is true) and that I need to forgive him because he's not a bad man, just a man who had let things slide that he shouldn't have and doesn't know how to begin getting them back. And that I'd be seeing him this summer. I have mixed feelings about that.

She also said that I need to get on with my education but that it would probably be delayed for a little bit while I figure some things out. I have decisions to make don't you know. That's all I'm going to say about that. What else? Oh, my summer is apparently going to be not half bad. That I'll be meeting new people and that I won't be without a relationship. What the hell does that mean? She said it very strangely and with a sort of smirky expression which makes me wonder now that I think about it. Not mean smirky, just knowing smirky. I probably should've asked her to elaborate but I don't ever ask questions about my personal life during these things because I don't think I need to know. I'd rather have the uncertainty. Uncertainty breeds hope.

And then she talked about some of my health issues (again really specific and damn creepy) and said that they'll be getting better soon. Which again makes me happy. And that I'd be having a child. Yeah. Not now, or really soon but that there was definitely a child in my future. I'm so not sure how I feel about that one. I'll get back to you.

So that's the basic jist of it. There was quite a bit more on the relationship topic (I didn't ask, she brought it up - that prying bitch :-)) but I'm just going to keep that to myself for now. Too personal and too specific for the sharing today I'm thinking. But that was one of the creepier bits because she knew stuff. Lots of stuff. Really, really specific stuff. Yep. Anyway...

Oh, one more thing. She said that my grandfather was there and that in hindsight there were alot of things he wished he had done differently. That there was a certain clarity reached when you cross over to the "other side" and that he was sorry for the way things had gone. Again with the very, very mixed feelings. It was an interesting afternoon for sure. So yes, tea leaves are fun like rollercoasters but not tomato seeds and definitely not spiders because they're just no fun at all.